Thursday, February 16, 2006

 

My hand still hurts...

just a little but, not enough to keep me from writing this week! The Carpal Tunnel surgery went well and I am still recovering. The stitches will be removed tomorrow and with any luck I'll also find out how much longer I must endure the indignity of relying upon my parents to move me around the house. Really, the most frustrating part for me right now is when I find myself sitting next to the toilet with nothing to keep me entertained, other than watching the water swirl around the bowl, while I wait for one of my parents to move me to another room!

The joys of the toilet bowl aside, it has been an exciting week. Over the weekend I got to meet all of the angels who saved me from the wreckage of my jeep. (have I mentioned how much I loved that jeep?) We invited each of them and their significant other to join us for dinner at my parents home. I've recently seen pictures of the jeep and I honestly cannot fathom how I survived. The people who svaved me risked life and limb to get me out. I don't believe that the entire story of the accident is covered on this blog (don't worry, I'm not going into it now) and I feel that the people who saved me should be recognized. I truly believe that I would not have survived the accident without divine intervention. That night Keryn Vickers, Mary Tessmer, Matt Demmings, Joe Tessmer, and Michael Jackson (not the singer) were the agents of that devine power. If not for them, I would not be alive today.

I also had the opportunity to speak with some of the people from my church who have offered their support and prayers to my family and I throughout this ordeal. I know that there are many people who have been with us during this time, many of whom I have not met. It's very important to me that all of you know how thankfull I am. Your prayers and support are a large part of what is helping me get through this. Through my conversations I have learned that their is one thing that I need to share with all of you. That one thing is my current mental state in regards to my injuries and how they occurred.

I have received many cards and letters that offer support for me during this "dark time" and are trying to help me deal with depression. While I do appreciate the cards and letters I think it's important for all of you to know that I'm not depressed or going through a "dark time". In fact, it's very rare that I feel angry, bitter, or depressed about what has happened. When I do have those feelings they are fleeting at best. Oh, in the very early days, when I was first waking up, I did have some pretty depressing thoughts. Then someone told me that when she heard that there were no spinal injuries or brain trauma she knew I would be okay. I realized she was right, that I would walk again, and that I would still be able to lead a "normal" life.

This past week I also had my first conversation with the father of the girl who hit me. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't irritated by the fact that she still has not been told the full extent of my injuries. However, I will not allow myself to be angry that her parents have been trying to protect their daughter. I have made her father aware that I feel that she needs to know the full extent of the changes in my life as well as several other peoples lives resulting from the accident. I have also informed her father that I wish to let her know that she is a 16 year old girl and needs to move past this and live her life. I want her to learn from this and share it with other people her age but I don't want her to be haunted with images of the night for the rest of her life.

When I left the Marriott last April I realized that I had been holding on to a lot of negative emotions as a result of the issues I dealt with while working there. Those negative emotions had only made me miserable and unsatisfied with my life. In that state I had not been able to move forward. As I began to realize this I began to let those negative emotions wash away. The questions behind those issues will always be there but the negativity no longer holds me back. It's this philosophy, strengthened by your support and prayers, that has allowed me to heal so quickly. As a very special friend recently said, I wasn't "even supposed to be out of the hospital yet". As I move forward my mind is focused on improvement and positivity not darkness or depression.

That's pretty much it for this week. I'll try to be more brief next week. Please pray for continued healing on my left leg. With any luck the remaining abrasions will be gone by the 28th and the doctors will write the order for my first prosthetic fitting on that day. Also, if you're interested in accessing earlier blog entries there are archive links on the left hand border of the page. The blog began toward the beginning of my long nap on November 6th. Thanks again and have a great week.

Comments:
You are truly amazing!!!!
 
Hey again,

Im glad that your hands feeling a bit better and I will keep hoping that it continues to improve.

I think its great that you got to meet the people who got you out of the Jeep that night - and I dont think that anyone who knows you couldnt be aware of how much you loved the Jeep! ;) - they are truly amazing people. As are you.

Keep up the improvements, and I'll keep checking back. I wont be back in Indy until June when I'll be back for good. So I'll defiantely come and see you then.

Take care,
princess Annie :)
 
Thinking of you brightens my day. Just knowing that you are around to share another special day in all of our lives is truly a miracle. I believe in you Jeremy and what God has in store for you. He only gives us what we can handle, the rest we deal with through his everlasting mercy and grace and above all, strength!!You have shown us all what strength and love in the Lord can give us, everlasting and continous life. Keep your head up my friend and that positive attitude as it is contagious!! Take care of you and the rest will fall into place!
God Bless you Jeremy!!
Love you always,
Marsha Shoemaker
 
Jeremy - since I'm like the sister you never had...oops you have a sister. Okay - since you are like the brother I never...oh, that won't work either. How about this: since we could practically be siblings, I'm thinking I don't need to tell you that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers everyday.
What I would like to tell you, however, is that I really like your writing style. Selfishly, I hope you keep writing on here long after you're back to walking around at your own house.
 
I'm glad you didn't get deleted today! I promise to call you back today. You sound wonderful, and we miss you dreadfully. Mr. Puppy wants to meet you. I am so proud of you.
 
Jeremy,

We have been watching your progress through the blog over the past several months. Your parents told us of your accident in their Christmas card.

Your progress and attitude is amazing. Just know that God answers prayers and provides healing. We will continue to check your progress.

Say hi to your mom and dad for us. I was your dad's (now old) roommate at IU.

Take care,

Chuck and Barb Oberly
 
Jeremy,

We have been watching your progress through the blog over the past several months. Your parents told us of your accident in their Christmas card.

Your progress and attitude is amazing. Just know that God answers prayers and provides healing. We will continue to check your progress.

Say hi to your mom and dad for us. I was your dad's (now old) roommate at IU.

Take care,

Chuck and Barb Oberly
 
Jerm,
Just because you are feeling better doesnt mean you can hit on my wife. I love you, brother but there are some things I just wont share...

Chief
 
Jeremy,
I am back from Texas and pretty caught up at work (from being away). Sounds like your surgery went well, but I understand your frustration. Swirling water isn't all that interesting. Call me when you want me to come by and see you again. Linda
 
Hey Jeremy,
the Stergar five here...

Just wanted to say...as many already have..but it always bears repeating...you have remarkable mental/emotional tenacity.
Your optimisim and sense of humor
keeps me in line with my own issues quite often.
Thank you for the light you shine into my life regularly.

MB
 
Hi Jeremy, I am Mark Gray, A burn patient from Wishard. I think you might have my business card or have heard about me. I talked with your mother at Wishard a month or so ago. I like your blog, keep it going. If you would like to contact me, my email is markgray3309@comcast.neI will be looking forward to hearing from you.
Mark
 
Jeremy--

Wow! I wanna be just like you when I grow up.

Love,
Katie
 
"In fact, it's very rare that I feel angry, bitter, or depressed about what has happened. When I do have those feelings they are fleeting at best."

We're so glad to know you haven't changed at all from that red headed feisty guy we had the joy to work with so long ago. Keep it up-we never doubted your tenacity.
Janet and Sandy
 
Hi Jeremy,
I've waited to write, mostly because I couldn't figure out how to do it. I found out about everything from Carla Monroe in December, I think. I know you know about me and what happened. to tell you the truth, I thought seeing you, which Dave suggested would be too hard for me. You are doing much better than I. I'm so proud of you. Keep up the good work. By the way, I saw your Jeep once out in front of "The Corner", It was pretty cool. Jeremy, I'm so glad you are ok. You mean the world to so many of us. Love, G
 
Jeremy,

You are amazing!!! I can not say anything else. Stay strong. Jennie and Jim
 
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